I looked up,
empty faces looked down upon me.
I tried to look away,
a castlesque house, an oversized vehicle;
two in fact, looked back at me!
‘Bad photoshop’ I quipped,
‘Home & car loan’ – the ad read;
‘Bad ad’, I shut my eyes again!
I tried to remember something,
couldn’t quite put a finger on it!
Smiled at the sad, rather expressionless faces;
Smiled perhaps a bit for self!
I shut them eyes again, knowing very well
this’d be the last of the naps I’d be getting this morning!
Life has become such; of late
holding bars, looking at faces, looking for faces!
Life has become such of late;
future, the thoughts of it always seem to be crowding the brain!
It’s a mindless scramble this,
a scramble for jobs, placements, salaries!
‘How do you feel on your birthdays?’ he asks.
‘Fucked up’ I reply.
Clearly, this wasn’t what my pal was looking for, as an answer.
Too late now; ‘Bad memories’ I continue!
I can see it in his eyes;
he wants to talk, talk about her;
and so we talk!
I now remember that something I was thinking about earlier.
There’s always this yearn, this wish;
just to see her, not necessarily talk, just look at her!
And hence, during this particular stretch,
there’s this childish want that maybe, today, I get to see her!
Today was one such day.
Looking at that ad,
There wasn’t anything in particular
which could’ve triggered the want
yet, here I was, hoping!
Amidst all that; the helplessness, the want, the anticipation
A part of me took it’s turn;
Quite suddenly, out of nothingness,
And said, ‘She doesn’t even use this stretch anymore, you fool!’
I look at my friend.
He is sitting here, alongside me,
staring into nothingness.
I put my hand around his shoulders.
‘Hey! Go watch Little Manhattan today!’
‘Yeah, yeah, seen it ten times!’ he says.
‘You’ll always remain my first love (Anya)’, I say.
He smiles, I join in!